Rebuilding your life does take time. There is no quick fix and you will do it at your own pace and in your own way.
Try to establish some kind of routine, order or pattern to your everyday life. Seek support when you need it.
You are likely to experience an emotional rollercoaster for the first year at least, but you will learn to ride it and not be frightened by it. You will build a new life for yourself and your family and with the right support, in time your life will become easier.
Your experience will become a memory and you will have the capacity to control that memory. There may be times when these memories are triggered. This is natural and to be expected. You can allow memories to come out of their box, and you can also put them back in there.